Yes, I am a planner!

As most of you know, I am a planner.  You may also know that I like to be productive.What does this mean exactly?  Well, it means that I am typically doing something and if I am not, my brain is planning to do the next thing. Also, I have a hard time relaxing.  To get my brain off of the daily tasks, I typically have to watch something (like a movie or TV show) or be talking to someone.

So all these little facts about me can make me hyperfocus on things, which is ultimately what I am doing for this trip.  There are a lot of details that I must attend to.  I am normally not super worried about forgetting something, but from what I hear, if I don't bring it with me, I won't be able to find it in Haiti.

Needless to say, I have been doing a lot of preparing for Haiti.  Making lists, buying things, making piles, and then, lastly, packing.  I will actually begin my packing endeavor tomorrow. 

In a lot of ways, this trait is helpful as I get things done and am typically prepared for most situations.  In other ways, it isn't helpful, because I don't just rest and I must find other ways to take my mind off the present task. 

If I start searching deeply for the reasons I am this way, it probably stems from a desire to be in control of the situation.  I definitely understand that, in life, I am not in control and anything can happen, but I guess it's my feeble attempt to control something. I know that God is in control of every aspect of my life, including this trip. I think sometimes it is hard for me to understand that he even cares about the small details and that if I forget something, he will provide a different way or that thing won't even matter.  I would like to rely more on God for the small details of my life.  This reminds me of the scripture in Matthew 6:25-27

25Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life[b]?